It’s like when you see yourself in the mirror every day, you really do not notice the changes as much as if you look in the mirror only once a year…
That was how I felt last week, I was Budapest working as I always do during the week and for some reason, out of the blue but not noticible, I was depressed, no reason, just depressed. There was not even a real thought in my head but after a bit there was one thought; am I doing the right thing here in Budapest? Then the thoughts started multiplying like crazy, before I knew it I had all kinds of thoughts loading me down, pulling me to the floor!
I sat at my desk, empty and lifeless, my team was asking me what was wrong, I never could hide my mood! Then I saw my comment on a page I left; “We create our own reality” how many times had I written this, taught this and preached it to everyone I know? And there it was, totally controlling me and my entire world!
I decided to take a few minutes to look at what I have to be thankful for, who in my life makes me feel good and what I should actually be happy…it did not take long and I had to laugh at my situation, it was strange for me, after all this time, to be slammed in the face with such feelings. I can only say that I am happy I was able to see where I was at that moment, I am thankful for that what I have learned over the years.
It just goes to show that no matter how trained, awake, conscious or aware one is, you can be hit out of no where, it sneaks up on you and suddenly there you are, in the middle of it all!
We actually do create our own reality, I did it negatively and then again positively, what a great lesson I learned again….
Maybe this will help one or the other person who has the same situation, who knows, whatever the case I thank you all for reading!
Be well,
Your Steven